Day 31 - #Reverb10 - Core Story

Prompt: Core story. What central story is at the core of you, and how do you share it with the world? (Bonus: Consider your reflections from this month. Look through them to discover a thread you may not have noticed until today.)
Author: Molly O'Neill, Harper Collins Children's , @molly_oneill
 
So here we are...at the end of the month of December, at the end of the year 2010, and at the final prompt for #reverb10.

I am SO PROUD of myself for taking the time to reflect and respond to each of the #reverb10 prompts! I'm also proud that I never got too far behind (cause that would have likely been the end of it for me)! I think it's a testament to how much I REALLY enjoy writing and connecting with this wonderful online community I have FINALLY actively joined.

Now on to the final #reverb10 prompt of 2010...

Who am I at the core? What is my story? Scary question if you ask me...but I'm going to try to answer it openly and honestly.


I'm someone who strives to be successful in everything I do, yet is so afraid of failure that I often don't take the risks necessary to truly succeed.

I'm an emotional and sensitive person who feels like an open book when it comes to my feelings. However, I did find out yesterday that some people I work with didn't realize I was so sensitive. They thought I was hard core tough and "scary" (so not truly me at all!). I didn't realize that people could see me SO differently than I actually am.

I incessantly compare myself to other people. I long to be included, but many times feel like I'm on the outside looking in.

I LOVE learning and am a knowledge seeker. I want to fill my brain to the brim with all types of information that I can use and share.

I'm really a good person at the core, but don't always manifest it when I'm being overemotional and over reactive. I want to be a better wife, sister, daughter and friend.

When I see some of these traits that are so deeply me, it makes me a little sad that I can't see the more positive things about myself. However, I'm committed to trying to see more of my positive attributes in 2011 and to really discover where my passions lie. To see more rainbows among the clouds...

I've just began to share my core story with the world through this blog and I'm so excited to keep up with it and see how my thoughts and the things I accomplish evolve over time. When I read back through all of my #reverb10 posts, I think that I've been consistent about writing in a way that is true to myself. I didn't try to sugar coat anything, as I'm not a sunshine and roses kind of girl. I AM hoping that with all the self-reflection I have done thus far and that which I will do on this blog in the future, that I can begin SEE more things that make me the beautifully different person I am (a phrase I never thought about until #reverb10 - Day 8)...to LIVE A BRIGHTER LIFE!

Whew...done. Although I've loved participating in #reverb10, I'm SO looking for some much lighter and fun posting in the weeks to come! :-)

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