Prompt: Defining moment. Describe a defining moment or series of events that has affected your life this year.
Author: Kathryn Fitzmaurice, The Year the Swallows Came Early, @KFitzmaurice
Unfortunately for me, the only defining moment that I can think of was one that won't win any "Best Moment of the Year" awards in my book.
The most defining moment of 2010 was back in June when I was abruptly switched from one position within my company to another. With no warning, I was all of a sudden on new projects with a new boss and someone else was now working on all the projects that I had worked so hard on.
I think the hardest part of the switch was the confidence I lost in myself. I was really confident in the work I had previously been doing and was really looking forward to gaining more responsibility and expertise in that area. I felt like I was being "kicked out" of one group, like I wasn't worthy of working in it anymore. I instantly felt like an outsider in a group I had been a part of for over a year. I felt like no one really cared how I felt about the move, especially when it was common knowledge how much I liked what I was doing.
The switch really put me in a funk that I was in for most of the second half of the year. There were times when the projects in my new position weren't really progressing as planned, so there wasn't much work to do. I felt inadequate and like I wasn't being used to my full potential (and sometimes still do...).
It will be admitted now, that the way I was switched from one group to another wasn't well done, but the damage had already been done.
I'm still in the process of trying to find my voice in this new position and find a way to REALLY make a difference. I'm trying to learn how to navigate some of the different mindsets that I am encountering in this new group and trying to help bridge the gap between my old group and this new one.
I'm hoping that as we enter 2011, that I can really FULLY comes to terms with my new role (since I haven't quite done that yet) and find a way to LEARN and GROW from these new experiences.