**This was a post I'd written a couple of months ago and I was waiting for a little more readership since I'm really looking for input on how other women deal with these types of questions. I figured now was as good a time as any to finally hit publish!**
The Hubs and I have started the conversation about when we think we'll be ready to start a family. Being that he's in no rush, but not really opposed to starting whenever, that leaves the ball in my court to decide when to get things rolling. A BIG DECISION!
Being an engineer, I tend to over analyze anything and everything. Once my brain starts going on a tangent, there is no stopping it. To top it off, I'm a huge planner and a bit of a pessimist (My friends may say I'm more than a bit of a pessimist, but we'll leave that topic alone for now!). So this decision, which is SOO important, has pretty much consumed me!
I know for sure that I want to have children and I always thought that I would have my first before I was 30. Being that I'm 28 now, that date seems to be looming closer than ever. At the same time, I don't want to ignore my career potential. I've got an advanced engineering degree and am a good worker who always strives to be successful and better myself whenever the opportunity arises. When I think about starting a family though I think about all of the obstacles that I face when these potential career opportunities come up and how I will be able to achieve that work/life balance.
** Will the company be upset that I want to take time off to be with my baby?
** Will I be passed up on potential opportunities because of this?
** How will I schedule these things when I have NO idea how long it will take to even GET pregnant?
** What will I do with the baby once he/she is here and I have to go back to work? I'm afraid I'm going to miss important milestones in my baby's life if I'm working all the time!
** How do I decide on daycare and how will we pay for it all??
On the other hand, I don't want to totally focus on my career and forgo family. My biological clock is ticking. I know that women are having children later in life, but I also know that fertility declines with age. I worry that I will be the one that has trouble getting pregnant. I just don't want to have any regrets! I want to have my cake and eat it too!
I'm really interested to see how other working mothers and mothers-to-be out there are dealing with this ever present dilemma, so feel free to share this blog post with others who may have some insightful thoughts on this situation.